Recently I met with my spiritual therapist, and I was telling her how deeply I’ve felt my growth this year. But what people don’t always talk about is how growth can also bring up so much discomfort. So many old identities, coping mechanisms, versions of yourself, and survival patterns that you have to grieve and let go of in order to evolve.

While connecting to my guides, she reminded me that I chose a very heavy and challenging soul contract. One that would have broken many people. Some may not have made it through it at all. And while I do recognize that part of me chose these experiences for deep evolution and soul growth, there is also the very human side of it all.

Because carrying difficult experiences leaves residue behind. Layers of fear, pain, self-protection, grief, and conditioning that do not just disappear overnight. They become energy that has to be worked through, cleared, transformed, and consciously released over and over again. Hence why energy work, therapy, nervous system regulation are non-negotiable for me. 

I think sometimes people romanticize healing and spiritual growth, but the truth is that becoming who you truly are often requires the death of who you had to become in order to survive. There is a lot of goodbyes in the process. And that process can feel incredibly heavy some days.

So it’s important to remember:
You can honor the strength of your soul and be grateful for that growth, while also honoring the exhaustion of being human and all the experiences that come with it.